Update: I know I'm still working through some things still but today I feel 10 times better. I rec'd the most wonderful comments so far on the last post as well as several private emails that really made me smile. I think sometimes you just hit a bottom. It may not be the bottom-ist of bottoms but its where YOUR limit is, and its when you know you need to talk about it. I guess that's what I was doing last night.
As some have suggested, I did several things for myself today that really helped:
1 - painted layers on a canvas, with my hands (favorite paint brushes)
2 - painted a barbie doll red (really seemed like good therapy. lol)
3 - decided to take one thing at a time
4 - booked a hotel and 4 tickets to the beach for July.
5 - forgave myself
I rec'd a phone call out of the blue this morning from a dear friend whom I haven't talked to in months. She doesn't read my blog, she just decided to call. It really set the tone for my day. Life can always be worse I think. I'm finding greener pastures today.
Psalm 23: 1-3
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
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